There is always a voice in my head nagging me.
But I don’t want to.
My family tells me I need to.
But my emotions are too strong.
I know the consequences.
But I would rather suffer and cry.
Every fiber of my being pushes me towards it.
But something continues to hold me back.
It’s not as easy as just trying. I have to be mentally ready for the work load. Today was one day where I found enough distractions that I drew out my suffering for hours. The sad part is
I know I will do it again soon.
This is really good! I was feeling the same way today and you described it great.
l love you and your perfect writing. Thanks for being the best person in the universe.