I started this challenge on the right track; the first on I missed being the 17th. As time wore on, March became so hectic that I could not keep up. Today, I know that I need to write because it is finally the end. Most of my slices this year were based on achieving success in life. Next year, I hope to achieve success with my slices.
A break is coming. I can see it in the eyes of my peers and feel it in my every move. As I wait, my world breaks down around me, and the incredibly organized state of my life disintegrates. 3 days go by without a Slice of Life. Clothes, both clean and dirty, lie all over my house. The to-do list hanging on my fridge grows longer by the minute. Stress from it all forces me to miss activities, yet I do nothing to fix it. I just sit and wait for the break that is the only thing to have a chance at fixing my life.
I will fall asleep tonight with a smile on my face. Not because of the victory, but because of the people. The people that make me laugh. The people that genuinely care how I’m doing. The people that I used to pass in the hallway and now conversate with daily. The people that have goals and motivation to match my own. Without these people, the win would mean nothing.
Sometimes, all we need is a moment. One that can remind us of the good things or at least push out the bad. My moments happen in times of silence and pondering when I can really analyze and think about what life is. Right now, I’m having a moment, and I thought it would be a good thing to share.
I’ve heard that if you say something enough, you may even begin to convince yourself. Often, I find myself thinking about this in daily activities. My choices should not become regrets so often, but I can quickly turn this regret into motivation will a few choice words.
“Stop thinking about ‘making it through’ and just be in the moment.”
“I love _________ so much!”
“I can’t wait for_________!”
“Most people don’t have this opportunity.”
“If I’m here, there’s no point in wasting time.”
And the most frequent,
“I always have something else to prove.”
I finally rewarded myself today after realizing how much I have been keeping up with and how optimistic I’ve managed to remain. Choosing a reward is always difficult; everything has a consequence. If I choose food, I will most likely feel sub-par later. If I choose an activity, it will only anger me when I don’t have much time. If I choose to pamper myself, the effects will eventually fade away. Today, I simply choose to not go above and beyond. I will be completely relaxed and normal with no regrets.
What is expected can never be appreciated to the extent of the unexpected
– A reoccurring thought
My entire life is built around a plan. I’ve never been one to be compulsive, but lately it is beginning to take over. More of my time is spent planning than actually pursuing life. At this moment, I feel so overwhelmed that nothing even seems important anymore. I need to let things happen as they will and make the best out of whatever outcome occurs…or maybe I just need to sleep.
Observing an entire group of people with a common goal is incredible.
Witnessing years of hard work pay off for friends is incredible.
A room full of people simply TRYING is incredible.
Families opening up to an unknown person is incredible.
Group exhaustion is incredible.
Having people that care is incredible.
Today has been incredible.
6 hours pass, yet it feels like one. Midnight has become 5 in the afternoon. As I look around, all I can see are exhausted people. Lack of sunlight and a busy schedule left me with an irregular sense of time–which would be why I am writing my slice at 12:09.